The thing I’m most grateful and thankful for is the inner peace, the eternal love, and the ever-present joy I feel everyday, just by being here, alive and aware to take in all of life’s amazingness. Each breath is a gift I receive, and every moment is precious, but I haven’t always felt this way…
♥ There were times in my life that I was resentful, cranky, depressed, sick and quite frankly not that pleasant to be around. I was miserable. Life was a grind. I hated it. And then… I had a very enlightening experience. I had the opportunity to face what it would be like not to have this life. Not to live in my body anymore…
Only a few of my closest friends know about what happened to me a few short years ago, and even those few who know, know only the condensed version of what happened.
So, what did happen? Well, long story sort, I had a medical emergency, the kind that if I had been alone, would have likely killed me. Luckily for me, I was in the presence of my real-life, Guardian Angel; one of the best friends a girl can ever have. This amazing person saved my life. Literally. If it had not been for this long-time friend of mine, I’d not be able to type this story, and for that, and many other reasons, too numerous to mention, I will always be karmically and whole-heartedly devoted and in love with this wonderful being. So grateful!
So many things in my life changed with that incident. While in the hospital I had a near-death experience that completely clarified what I was doing and not doing in this life, and I was given the choice of living or dying. Both options were valid, and being the diplomat I am, I was able to see the pros and cons of each. Upon careful consideration, I obviously chose life.
I had the ability to clearly see how limitless life is, and how I had been limiting myself and my experience of it. I realized that I had not been living at all… or perhaps just barely living. I had become a shadow of my vibrant, inquisitive, fun, joyful and juicy self. I had the realization that I had been wasting my life, squandering the plenitude of passion, purpose and pleasure that was my birthright, and natural state. How did I not see this? How blind had I been to what I was really doing? How incredibly fortunate was I to be given the opportunity to have that realization! Oh My!!!! I was so grateful for that moment of insight!
♥ Everything changed in an instant. ♥
Gratitude and the commitment to really living life changed everything. I know that many people thought I was crazy to make the changes I’ve made. I felt that I would have been crazy not to. My new devotion to living life to my fullest expression of the real me is what changed the way I feel about myself, about the world, about life.
I live life purely and with genuine peace of mind. I truly wake up each morning with such joy and gratitude, and wonder-filled curiosity about what else is possible, what miracles can I witness, and what love I can be… Life has become a waking dream, one that never ceases to amaze, inspire and delight me, and I can only hope that you can get a bit of a buzz from my high, and that you too have your own utopia right inside your heart and soul!
This is the bliss I’m in, and this is why I’m so thankful and appreciative and so excited to share the wisdom I have learned from seeing myself from the other side. I live to be love, live love and teach love. And for that I’m so thankful!